Forgive me bloggersphere....

...for I have sinned!
It has been over 7 months since my last post and honestly I'm not sure why it's taken me this long to get back into it.


Obviously the main point of the blog was to document our wedding plans and we're now married (for 7 months) so what else do I have to say right!?


I did struggle with wondering why anyone would read my blog.  Other blogs that I read and enjoy are about wedding planning, pregnancy, baby care and style. None of these are topics I have much to say about.  But then I realised it's not the topic that I enjoy reading about its the people that write them. So why wouldn't someone read mine?  And what do I care?  I found writing this blog to be cathartic so it doesn't really matter if anyone reads it does it?


I think this blog will be about work.


Like most women I suffer from a lack of confidence when it comes to work.  I've worked in the IT industry my whole life and in Local Government for most of it, with over 4 years with my current employer.  
I've worked my way up from a job on the Helpdesk when I was a fresh faced graduate through IT Support roles and now IT Service Management.  I would say I've been reasonably successful and have received many promotions over the years yet I feel out of my depth more often than not.
Everyone seems to know more than me and act way more grown up and professionally than I do.  The motto "fake it until you make it" should be tattooed on me somewhere as it's something I think many times a day.
I've shared my concerns about my ability with my manager and she has said it's good to feel this way.  It means I'm always striving to improve and will never rest on my laurels.   I guess this means my lack of confidence actually drives me in a weird way.


So I'm now trying to embrace these feelings, recognise that they only last a few hours or days and that I'm a lot more capable than I think.  There is nothing that can't be learnt you just have to be wiling to say "I don't know".


So this is the end of my first blog of 2012 I hope to come back a bit more regularly now.


If you get a moment please read the tweets of @misshbond and her blog.
They show that work problems and wedding planning are really not important.